
I thought I would sit down and just share my heart, so here goes. I never thought God would have ever created me (Heather) to do what I am doing now. In some ways it feels completely natural and in other ways completely unnatural. I have been having a conversation with the Lord lately. It goes something like this (in a winey voice), “So, Lord, are you sure you have the right woman? I mean, I can think of so many other “qualified” women to take my place.” But this is the truth, He choose me and I am truly honored. In the Bible when God chose men and women to go on behalf of him to accomplish a “mission”, he didn’t go looking for the most “qualified”. He picked people who where imperfect, they made bad decisions, they messed up!
I am no different than the men and women in the Bible. Whatever great or good thing he does through me, He will get all the attention. Because I am imperfect, my heart isn’t always full of love. I still think only about myself. I am learning in these last months that it is good to be weak and not have a clue. You may think that sounds ridiculous. But I am finding it almost to begin to become a comfort. That means (God) has this huge canvas to work with. I am his canvas and I am changing with each stroke of his paint brush as I yield to His ways. He already knows what the “painting” will look like. I can take rest in the fact that it will be an amazing “painting”!
As we are living in Uganda Africa we have are daily challenges. We get frustrated. We have our “bad days”. In this last week we have become a little more homesick. But each day we are out at Hope Children’s Home and spend time with the children, my heart beats with a fulfillment like none other. I get to love these children who are at the very center of God’s heart….AMAZING!
So I have given up a lot of my “things” in the last year. But in these last months, I am finding that I am giving HIM a lot more of my heart. To me, this has become the greatest comfort because I might not know what to do in this situation or maybe I wasn’t loving another person in that situation. Or perhaps I was just thinking of myself in this situation. I am now giving Him (God) exactly what He has always wanted, my heart. I know that in doing this, anything is possible!
~Heather